2022-11-02
- A dispatch from the army. It’s like that meme where the GTA guy goes “aw shit, here were go again”. I wish I could elaborate more. But I’ll take it into the meta because the stuff right in front of me doesn’t feel accessible to write/talk about. So, the meta: it’s hard for me to be anything resembling my true self when I’m here. My identity, in ways big and small, is subsumed by what I imagine I am “supposed” to be. Of course, this is by design. And it turns out, it sucks! Well, to be specific it sucks at first. It’s like when you gotta jump into a kinda chilly lake. The immersion process is no fun. And that gets at the challenge of doing this thing part time: I never get past the immersion phase. I do this for a few days, then O put on a uniform, forget my old identity, etc etc
Date
November 2, 2022